Yellow Heights
I am an immigrant who came to the U.S. for graduate study. After twenty
years of working in software engineering and investment management, I went to a
top-ten education school to get a teaching degree and started teaching math, a
subject that deeply inspired me and guided me through my life and careers.
Currently, I am taking a health break, writing a book, and teaching math
and bridge to my community on a part-time basis. I like the outdoors and hope
to run Boston Marathon again; it was during my last run that I decided to
become a teacher.
IAN: Please tell us about your latest book.
Yellow Heights:
Parent. Math coach.
Climate science researcher. Software engineer and manager at Microsoft.
Investment analyst, trader, and risk manager at hedge funds. Entrepreneur. A
forty-five-year-old new teacher.
This book is about the journey of a first-generation immigrant becoming a
math teacher in the United States. This book recounts his Kafkaesque
experiences at education school, where he was labeled a white supremacist
simply for asking questions. He shares firsthand accounts of teaching math at a
public and a private school, offering a panoramic view of the issues
surrounding wokeness, coddling, and the lack of accountability in education.
He critically
examines the U.S. education system, drawing from the experiences of other
teachers, parents and students he has worked with. His journey through
different societies and education systems, and multiple careers-where math was
his critical edge-adds depth and credibility to the final reflections.
From Book
Reviews Cafe: ”Unbalanced is more than just one person’s narrative; it’s a
monument to perseverance, flexibility, and the bravery to keep pushing forward
even when the ground beneath you feels unstable. Readers will leave not just
comprehending the author’s path, but also pondering on the larger immigrant
experience and, perhaps, their own balancing acts in life.”
IAN: Is Unbalanced published in print, e-book or
both?
Yellow Heights:
The book is
published in both print and e-book.
IAN: Where can we go to buy Unbalanced?
Yellow Heights: Amazon.com,
Barnes & Noble, etc.
IAN: What
inspired you to write Unbalanced?
The idea first came to me while I was
pursuing an education degree during COVID. What I witnessed completely shocked
me: a white classmate and I (an Asian immigrant) were labeled “white
supremacists” simply for asking learning-related questions; students made a
kind, well-intentioned teacher cry by accusing her of lacking empathy; I was
called a “traitor of people of color” and “ideologically violent” for defending
standardized testing—not even wholeheartedly; and teacher candidates were
encouraged to “make good trouble within the education system.” I thought to
myself, Is this the America I came for? How many people would consider this
normal?
During my first year of teaching, I
got along well with my students, but some of my colleagues puzzled me, and I
experienced a few difficult conflicts. I began writing about these
incidents—partly to document them, partly to clear my mind. I didn’t know what
to do with my writing until I decided to take a break after receiving an
unexpectedly poor review from my principal.
As I reflected on my experiences, I
started to realize they might illustrate a broader story about the current
state of education. When I searched for similar books, I found almost none. The
few that existed were written long ago and didn’t capture what has happened in
the past decade—when ideology became prominent, students more fragile, and
teacher accountability more elusive.
That realization made me want to
write this book. And as an immigrant whose native language is not English, I
saw it as both a challenge and an opportunity. I’ve always loved a good
challenge.
IAN: What do
you hope your readers come away with after reading Unbalanced?
Yellow Heights: Maybe a clearer
picture on the current state of K-12 education;
Maybe a deeper appreciation of the
immigrant’s struggles and unique perspective;
Maybe a better understanding why
second-career teachers often can’t fit in;
Maybe a glimpse into how learning,
especially math learning, can work;
Maybe how learning is a life-long
journey and school is just one stop…
IAN: Are
experiences based on someone you know, or events in your own life?
Yellow Heights: This is primarily based on my life, although several
parts were stories of other people’s life, told from my perspective. At times I
omitted or deliberately changed identifying characteristics to preserve a
degree of anonymity, but everything in this book were based on real events.
IAN: How is Unbalanced
different from others in your genre?
Yellow Heights: The most popular teacher biography by far is Teacher Man
by one of my favorite writers, Frank McCourt. Most of the other influential
books on teaching, however, were written long ago, and the educational
landscape has changed dramatically over the past decade.
In general, it’s difficult to write a
book about education while actively teaching. Yet when teachers leave the
profession, they often lose the desire to revisit their experiences—especially
if those experiences were painful or disappointing.
I haven’t found a math teacher’s
memoir. I was a math teacher with twenty years of professional experience and
several years of volunteer teaching, so I had a clear sense of what good math
instruction should look like. When that ideal clashed so sharply with reality,
I felt I could offer readers a unique perspective. As an immigrant who also had
to struggle to find my place in this country, I believed my story could bring
something new to the conversation.
IAN: Is there
anything you find particularly challenging in your writing?
Yellow Heights: Writing in good
English was the biggest challenge. Even during my many years working in
finance, English had not been an impediment for me, so I thought I could write
well in English. But it took me a long time even to realize the gap. My earlier
version had usage of English that I thought was creative, with immigrant
characteristics, but it turned out most were just bad English.
My wife said I invented words with a
grimace on her face, and although I proudly said “Shakespear also invented
word”, the truth was that I slowly realized and improved the book’s grammar and
expression, over the two years of writing and revisions. Since I self-published
the book, I couldn’t hire an editor every time I made changes, and I made many rounds
of changes. Even the first edition of this book had some mistakes that were
undetected, which was being corrected for the second edition.
IAN: What was
the hardest part of writing Unbalanced?
Yellow Heights: The hardest part was
to confront my past failures. The way I left the school made me feel I was
fired for being a bad teacher and I couldn’t get over it, until I wrote about
it honestly. I also had to examine my motivation for becoming a teacher at the
age of 45. It was only when I became completely honest with myself that the
book became something I was truly proud of.
IAN: Did you
learn anything from writing Unbalanced and what was it?
Yellow Heights: I find that writing
is first and foremost for the author. It is a form of being really honest with
oneself, and as open as possible with the whole world. It is often a form of
reconciliation and healing.
That being said, one has to be
considerate for the readers. I don’t want to sacrifice my value simply to
please the reader, but I will try very hard to make it easier for the reader to
get the message, to resonate and to enjoy. There are always blind spots and
having objective beta readers who can give honest feedback is super important.
Like the book title suggests, finding
the balance is often the key. I enjoyed the process of finding the balance of
being true to oneself and respecting the readers.
IAN: Do you
have anything specific that you want to say to your readers?
Yellow Heights: First of all, I hope
you enjoy reading the stories.
Secondly, I hope it make you think.
Lastly, I hope it stimulates you to
some kind of action, either by sharing it quietly, discussing with friends, or
raising your concerns loudly to improve education, for the future of this
country.